They say to never ask a question you don't really want the answer to. But what if I'm tired of making assumptions? What if I'm tired of living life in the dark? What if I want the TRUTH for once?
What if I told you I love you? What if I meant it? What if I know about HER?
What if I still want you in spite of? What if I dream about you all the time?
What if long to hear your voice? See your smile? Touch your skin everyday?....
What if I can't stand this uncertainty between us any longer?
What if my heart is breaking & it's all your fault?
What if I'm crying inside b/c you won't love me back? What if I wasted my time crushing on you?
And all the poems written, all the in depth discussions, all the "movie nights" were failed attempts to reach your heart?
What is so wrong with me that you won't give in to my request of desire? Am I too forward?
Am I simply not your type? If so, why string me along this far? When time isn't counted and distance doesn't matter, where do I stand with you?
Should I turn my back and walk away... for good? Will you miss me if I do?
Should I stay, and face the pain hoping you will finally receive what I've wanted to give you all along...or is my love just not good enough for you?
Are these feelings even worth having?
Will I ever get these questions answered? (smh)
***Love is a BEAUTIFUL thing, but it loses radiance when it cannot be shared***
Sunday, February 20, 2011
The End...I Guess
And when it's all said and done I'm coming to the conclusion that maybe it just isn't meant to be right now. A good relationship cannot be built over betrayal and loss of trust. No love lost. My heart is broken, but it still works good. My spirit is injured, but it still dances as gracefully as a single flame atop a scented cande. My mind is confused, but it still thinks clearly. I'm running a long race and I've had plenty of hurdles to jump. I just have to realize that eventually there will be someone standing at the finish line with their arms wide open waiting to accept my love. I could be mad, but I'm not. I could feel that my time was wasted. But it wasn't. Everything happens for a reason, and I am not one to burn bridges. I am a true believer in love, and I know that it surpasses all. I am ready for love. I just need to find someone who is ready to receive it. Perhaps when you decide you're ready, my feelings for you will still be valid.... after all its not like I can forget how ((AMAZING)) you are. I'm gonna kill cupid for this lol
An Affair
So its true what they say... Love will find a way. Even if you shut the door in her face. Even if you jump on a plane to the furthest place away from her grasp.... Love will find you.
For a while I thought "To Hell with Love!!!" but I guess Love didn't feel the same way. My heart is open, and although it bothers me for it to be so free, perhaps its a good thing because its a warm invitation to those who may want to enter. An open door, an open book, a window for her to climb through. Yeah thats silly ol' me.
I feel her everywhere I go. I see her in the sky dancing on clouds, in the trees laying on a branch, in my reflection from the water on the ground...I taste her in every morsel of food I intake. She is sour. She is bitter. She is spicy. She is....sweet:) It doesn't matter what I'm craving, she satisfies my hunger everytime. I can boil her til she's tender, or fry her til she's golden brown... my appetite is fixed.
Yes, my relationship with Love has been rocky, but I cannot let her go. She is beautiful as she is cunning. She is smooth. Sassy. Seductive. Sexy. Sophisticated. Strong. She knows she has me in the palm of her pretty little hand. I look into her eyes and see immense beauty shining through. But there is also pain. I want to be her hero. And relieve her of her distress, but do I have that power?
I kiss her lips and feel joy rush through my body. My eyes well of tears. My head falls back and I know that with her.... I am happy....
She whispers gently in my ear peaceful things that soothe my soul. I envision us holding hands, and strolling through parks in the spring. Beaches in the summer. Snow in the winter. Could this all be possible? She kisses my neck softly, and promises me a beautiful future of bliss and romance. I cannot lie, this sounds so good... I believe her words. I have faith in her... I have faith in us.
Sometimes I swear she's playing games with me. Making me out to be some type of fool but...
I cannot let her go....
She leaves me breathless, but with the rest of my strength I will make a toast:
Cheers!... to a neverending affair with Love <3
For a while I thought "To Hell with Love!!!" but I guess Love didn't feel the same way. My heart is open, and although it bothers me for it to be so free, perhaps its a good thing because its a warm invitation to those who may want to enter. An open door, an open book, a window for her to climb through. Yeah thats silly ol' me.
I feel her everywhere I go. I see her in the sky dancing on clouds, in the trees laying on a branch, in my reflection from the water on the ground...I taste her in every morsel of food I intake. She is sour. She is bitter. She is spicy. She is....sweet:) It doesn't matter what I'm craving, she satisfies my hunger everytime. I can boil her til she's tender, or fry her til she's golden brown... my appetite is fixed.
Yes, my relationship with Love has been rocky, but I cannot let her go. She is beautiful as she is cunning. She is smooth. Sassy. Seductive. Sexy. Sophisticated. Strong. She knows she has me in the palm of her pretty little hand. I look into her eyes and see immense beauty shining through. But there is also pain. I want to be her hero. And relieve her of her distress, but do I have that power?
I kiss her lips and feel joy rush through my body. My eyes well of tears. My head falls back and I know that with her.... I am happy....
She whispers gently in my ear peaceful things that soothe my soul. I envision us holding hands, and strolling through parks in the spring. Beaches in the summer. Snow in the winter. Could this all be possible? She kisses my neck softly, and promises me a beautiful future of bliss and romance. I cannot lie, this sounds so good... I believe her words. I have faith in her... I have faith in us.
Sometimes I swear she's playing games with me. Making me out to be some type of fool but...
I cannot let her go....
She leaves me breathless, but with the rest of my strength I will make a toast:
Cheers!... to a neverending affair with Love <3
Will you hold me in the time of tears?
Comfort me in the darkness and fears?
Kiss me when the clouds emcompass the sun?
Show me love and tell me I'm your ONE?
Will you run with me to the end?
Can you tell me I'm more than just a friend?
Do you ever take my words seriously?
Do you believe me when I say I need you near me?
Is the bond we have simply a lie?
Is it a knot that you cannot untie?
Am I not what you really want?
Am I just a silly girl for you to taunt?
Will the wind blow success our way?
Will the night cease and make way for day?
Is there a future for you and me?
Should I stick around and see....?
My patience now quickly grows very thin.
I hate losing but with this situation how can I win?
The ball is in your court...
If I gotta go, let me prepare my passport.
Tired of feelin this way...make up your mind. Tomorrow isn't promised, so if there's someone else more deserving of my time then say something now so I can give love where it is appreciated.
Comfort me in the darkness and fears?
Kiss me when the clouds emcompass the sun?
Show me love and tell me I'm your ONE?
Will you run with me to the end?
Can you tell me I'm more than just a friend?
Do you ever take my words seriously?
Do you believe me when I say I need you near me?
Is the bond we have simply a lie?
Is it a knot that you cannot untie?
Am I not what you really want?
Am I just a silly girl for you to taunt?
Will the wind blow success our way?
Will the night cease and make way for day?
Is there a future for you and me?
Should I stick around and see....?
My patience now quickly grows very thin.
I hate losing but with this situation how can I win?
The ball is in your court...
If I gotta go, let me prepare my passport.
Tired of feelin this way...make up your mind. Tomorrow isn't promised, so if there's someone else more deserving of my time then say something now so I can give love where it is appreciated.
i want candy
I want you to accept my flaws but help me to improve them. I want you to tell me i'm beautiful even when I feel my worse. I want you to be beautiful. I want you to be clean. I want you to be honest. I want you to be nurturing. I want you to teach me to be nurturing. I want you to laugh with me and make me laugh. I want you to communicate with me. I want you to be serious about us. I want you to realize that playing games doesn't work with me. I want you to be focused and keep me focused. I want you to dream and encourage my dreams. I want you to strive for your goals and inspire me to do the same. I want you to support my ideas and constructively criticize the ones that won't work. I want you to teach me how to live and cherish the life I have with you. I want you to be adventurous. I want you to be worldly and well cultured. I want you to honor music and the arts. I want you to appreciate nature. I want you to take me to the beach, the zoo, the mountains and the city. I want you to hold my hand. I want you to kiss my forehead. I want you to be passionate. I want you to be romantic. I want you to miss me when i'm gone. I want you to fear losing me even when you know i'm going nowhere. I want you to hold me like every second is our last. I want you to be of high spirit and inspire me to be the same way. I want you present awesome conversation and talk with me about anything. I want you to love God. I want you to love me. I want you.
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